She lost one to pneumonia and the other to prison,
And now she spends mother's day sitting in her kitchen.
Looking at her pictures of the past felt surreal,
She had a couple people, some friends that helped her heal but,
Days like today, she doesn't want to be a bother
And as far as she's concerned, her boys didn't have a father.
Nut-uh, she had to teach 'em the ways
Teach 'em how to be behave, be brave, and even how to shave.
Some days it makes her feel like a soldier,
And other times it makes her feel like a failure.
Why did the stronger one die from a cold, huh?
Why did the smarter one end up in jail, Nah.
She gave them boys everything that she could,
Two full time jobs to keep them in a good neighborhood.
They understood how to love and how to live,
Now she doesn't understand how it comes down to this.
Maybe she should go work in her yard,
And take her mind off the past, try to let the day start.
But she's waiting on one of those annual calls
While she's looking at the photos on her hallway walls.
His big sibling died, and mom's by her self
And now he spends everyday inside of that cell.
Looking at the photos of his past makes him crash,
So he never takes them out of that folder under his mattress.
Days like today he doesn't think about what happened,
No, still gotta call mommy, wish her a happy one.
Uh huh, mom, if only she'd have been around,
Maybe big brother would still be living now.
Some days, it makes him feel like a traitor,
And other times it makes him feel like a martyr.
Seems like some displacement of anger,
Seems like he blames her more than his father.
She was gone all the time at work,
Never around to play the part of the police or the nurse.
She understood how things fall apart,
So why'd she let the nest hit the ground this hard?
Maybe he should go walk in the yard
And take his mind off the past, try to let the day start.
Cause this soldier forgot to admit it's his fault,
When he's looking at the faces in his hallway walls.
Greetings and Salutations;
Not all babies are born under the best of circumstances, sometimes they have to go to ICU to increase their viability, in the long term. In this instance, our baby has been in an icu, while outside circumstances were addressed to allow the baby's best circumstances improved to allow it to live in this world with out getting harmed by they who would love to snuff it out. Some of the old system couldn't be applied as was thought, so it required some tweaks, some new soft ware, kind of like going from microsoft to apple hardware/software.
The frustration is quite tangible out here, you could cut it with a knife. This had to happen and nothing was ever going to stop it but adjustments had to be made along the way. For most that seems like a delay. Terrain changes when you are climbing a mountain, and if you've never climbed that mountain before, no telling what you'll encounter. For me, It was just put one foot in front of the other, until the job was done. The folks at the front of the trail get word back to us, when they can, and that might not be right away, like you'd think. You might pick up some crashing boulders tumbling down the side of the mountain but you won't know exactly what that was in the back of the pack, all you know is you're impatiently waiting to get to the end of the trail. JPM, revealed some of their indiscretions, Jamie given the opportunity to 'save face' by it's owners. Now, goldman sachs keeps maintaining they did nothing wrong, so be prepared for the next shoe to drop. Humans have a real problem with change but as long as you're doing 'time' you will be dealing with it. Mike Kodowsky liked to tell people, when the time came, you'd swear it would never happen and confusion would abound. Listening to all these talking heads, spikes that in the dirt. One would think we're all going to hell in a hand basket. 'All that was once hidden, shall now be revealed.' Pray you are ready for the lid getting ripped off.
All the extracurricular activities, involving politicians, militaries, and heads of state, will be something you can tell your grandchildren about, if you care to. How it was, before the world moved on. You Will be a witness. Might I say, I've been to the mountain top so this will be no surprise for me, I've been waiting for the veil to be removed so you'd see it yourselves and I can quit 'preparing' you for it. Mass forward movement took place this past week but it wouldn't be prudent to tell it. Let it be surprise. Let those who have better standing in this world tell you, then in back of your mind you'll realize, you already heard the foretelling. The shock absorbers are in place, just ride the wave my friends. The future is here just walk thru the door.
Love and Kisses,